My baby's going to me a kid.

Where did the newborn baby go? When I had Jayden he was the first newborn I'd held in a LONG time. I think he was the first newborn any one in the family had held in a LONG time. What's even better he's all mine!! It was so nice to hold him and look at him. He brought so many joys with him when he entered our world, what a blessing. Who would have thought a little boy could make people so happy? He was such a well natured baby, just laid back and easy going. I used to say how I thought I could put him out in the driveway in the cold to play by himself and he wouldn't cry about it. People who didn't even like other baby's liked Jayden. He's so charming. He was just perfect. Plain and simple. Now, he's about to turn 5! 5 years old in about 2 and a half months. I keep saying it over and over in my head. 5, Jayden's going to be 5. Over and over and over agian. That's how I usually get used to my kids turning a year older. Only, this time, I don't think it's helping me. I just can not believe my baby is turning 5!! 5 is the age they can not be labeled as babies anymore! They are offically kids! Just kids that run around the house being loud, eating all the food and begging you to buy them new stuff. Yup, a kid just like every other kid. They start school and offically enter the begining of the transition into the real world. He's been with Julyan pretty much Julyan's WHOLE life, save for one night jayden stayed the night at his grandma's house, and now he's supposed to go to kindergarden without even Julyan. I thought about trying to get them to let Julyan in with Jayden because Julyan is just as smart as Jayden or holding Jayden back a year so they could bo it together but, that's probably not healthy. Anyway my baby turning 5. Hard to imagine. This is freaking me out similarly to the way my mom feels when she thinks of huge masses of water or when you repeat the same thing to her over and over again. Or how my sister feels when there is a balloon around. Truly FREAKED out! Now, I know how they feel.